I started this blog to share a voice. To offer perspective that meant something to me, that I hoped would touch at least one person. For the last few months I’ve received support regarding this blog mainly from friends, but recently, I was given support from outsiders, strangers, and people I’ve never met directly yet. Thank you. I notice you. And I am grateful for you noticing me.
I promised myself one thing, though—that I would never force myself to write unless I felt called to. My dad, who is one of my main supporters and who even helped design and create this forum for me, actually suggested that I post weekly. Maybe even monthly. And normally, I take every single piece of advice of his. But not this time. It didn’t feel right. I wanted to post only when I felt something genuine.
This past month has been weird. A lot of self reflection, law school finals, and life entangled in and out of mental and emotional constraints. A couple posts earlier, I had discussed the idea of one door closing and another opening. I always knew and believed in that, and even felt I was being genuine then. But that reality has never hit me harder than it did for me this past month: After bucket loads of rejection, uncertainty, confusion, and getting so close to giving up for good, I am excited to end this year on more of a positive note: Next summer I will be a legal intern for the Minnesota Vikings. If you have been following my posts, or if you know me at all, you know that this is truly a dream come true. But it’s not over yet: it’s just a glimpse. A taste of what I want for my future. But nothing is guaranteed, and I am blessed to have been given the opportunity at all. Not lucky. Not overly driven or more of a hard worker than anyone else who would want to be in a similar situation. Just blessed. Because honestly, these small triumphs are in fact an accumulation of a little bit of all those things combined. I urge you to keep pushing on.
So, to wrap up the 2017 year, I have a couple of words I would like to share. First, if you have an idea, make it a reality—like how I decided to turn my journey to a blog. Just do it. Be ready to be uncomfortable, and always strive to push yourself to be different than the past you. Otherwise, complacency leads to boredom, and boredom leads to apathy. No one wants that. Second, understand that doors are constantly opening and closing and that you just need to keep moving towards the open ones; that is the universe telling you where to go next, like how I was given rejection and inspiration in the same pursuit during my interview process. And third, be certain of nothing more than very few things. Timing, patience, and intuition will show you what to be certain of, even if you think you are so sure of something, certainty is not in the future, it is usually found in the past — like the opportunity given for me to move to Minneapolis next summer. Never could I have been so sure of that, not until I accepted and looked back was I certain that I wanted that position so badly.
I have learned to let life be dynamic, because it will be anyway, so sometimes It is okay to let go, only a little bit, and look at the outcome in a positive light instead. All in all thank you for listening to me this past year, and good luck with your pursuits as well. I’m only an email away if you would like to connect. I hope to give more of my journey in the new year. I am excited for what is to come.
Have a blessed holiday.
Edited by Leigh Ann Skaggs
